Been a little quiet

I know I have been pretty quiet of late. Work has been pretty busy and my social calendar has been preettttyyy hectic as well, both of which are good things I guess!

Anyways, will write more soon!

Till then,
XOXO

Bon Jovi here I come!!!!

Woo hoo!!!! Finally got around to buying my ticket for the Bon Jovi concert! Super psyched and super excited! The last time they held a concert in Malaysia was when I was still in high school. I hope they sing more of their older stuff. You know, songs like You Give Love a Bad Name, Bed of Roses, Always,  Your Love Is Like Bad Medicine, Living on a Prayer.

Gotta go learn up all the lyrics to their songs. Shouldn't be a problem seeing as I already have got most of their songs memorised.

What's your favorite Bon Jovi song? Come on sing it with me...Shot thrugh the heart and you're to blame!

Musings on a lazy Sunday afternoon

I caught San Andreas in the theatres over the weekend. Can't resist a movie with The Rock in it. Have loved him ever since his WWE days (yes I watch wrestling). I have to say he has transitioned really well onto the big screen.

Anyways, the movie is set mainly in San Franciso, so obviously certain memories associated with my ex came rushing back into my mind. And you know what? It's ok. Those memories no longer give me a stabbing pain in my heart. It's something that I can push away relatively easily now as compared to before. Question is, why do these memories still come back or why do I still associate certain things with him so easily? Honestly, I don't have the answer to that but I have learned to just accept that it is what it is. There is no fighting or denying the fact that I was crazy about him. Initially I wanted to deny that I fell for someone so quickly. I guess that was my ego talking. But facts are facts and no matter how much you protest, the truth will always remain the truth.

I am now more able to look back at the whole incident and approach it in a more objective manner. But no matter how objective I try to be, one fact still remains. The type of guy that I am looking for, the type of guy that makes my heart skips a beat will have to have a lot of similar qualities to my ex. Not his douchebag qualities of course, but those parts of him that could make me laugh or knew me so well. Those parts of him which clicked so well with me. You can call me a sucker but like I said it is what it is.

I won't lie. I still do harbour hopes that we can be friends again one day. He will be back in January and if he still does not want to have anything to do with me then, it will make for an ackward situation as I am still hanging out with some of his closest friends. We shall see.

Photograph by Ed Sheeran

Ed Sheeran has done it again. Deep down I am a hopeless romantic and the lyrics of his songs always speak to that side of me. Loving his latest single. Check it out girls (and guys)!

Loving can hurt

Loving can hurt sometimes

But it's the only thing that I know

When it gets hard

You know it can get hard sometimes

It is the only thing that makes us feel alive

We keep this love in a photograph

We made these memories for ourselves

Where our eyes are never closing

Hearts are never broken

Times forever frozen still

So you can keep me

Inside the pocket

Of your ripped jeans

Holdin' me closer

'Til our eyes meet

You won't ever be alone

Wait for me to come home

Loving can heal

Loving can mend your soul

And it's the only thing that I know (know)

I swear it will get easier

Remember that with every piece of ya

And it's the only thing we take with us when we die

We keep this love in this photograph

We made these memories for ourselves

Where our eyes are never closing

Our hearts were never broken

Times forever frozen still

So you can keep me

Inside the pocket

Of your ripped jeans

Holdin' me closer

'Til our eyes meet

You won't ever be alone

And if you hurt me

That's OK, baby, only words bleed

Inside these pages you just hold me

And I won't ever let you go

Wait for me to come home [4x]

Oh you can fit me

Inside the necklace you got when you were 16

Next to your heartbeat

Where I should be

Keep it deep within your soul

And if you hurt me

Well, that's OK, baby, only words bleed

Inside these pages you just hold me

And I won't ever let you go

When I'm away

I will remember how you kissed me

Under the lamppost

Back on 6th street

Hearing you whisper through the phone,

"Wait for me to come home."

To Tinder or Not To Tinder

One day, one of my fellow singleton BFF suggested that I try Tinder. My friend suggested Tinder because I was lamenting the fact that it's hard to meet anyone new in this town.  She tried it and thought it was a great way to meet new people. Ever since then I have been toying with the idea. I have yet to take the plunge - being afraid of who or even what I would find in Tinder. Will it be filled with weirdos? If yes, would I then be considered one too? Will it be filled with guys only looking for a fling or even a ONS? Don't get me wrong, I am not placing my hopes in finding THE ONE on Tinder, but neither do I want to have to deal with guys who only want flings or ONSs.

Feel free to share your thoughts (or experience) on this whole online dating culture.

Smart women, stupid relationship decisions

Have you ever wondered why is it that no matter how smart a woman is she still tends to make crazy stupid relationship decisions? Somehow when it comes to men, our smarts go out the window! We hold on to those who don't deserve us. We spend our time on those who do not even deserve a single minute of it.

I have seen this happen to so many of my accomplished girlfriends. These are attractive, smart, independent women. Some of them get stuck in abusive relationships for years. Some of them invest so much of their time on someone who can barely even spare a minute of his time for her. Some of them get caught up in the vicious cycle of being with a serial cheater. Heck, if you don't believe me just look at Hollywood! Look at Rihanna and Chris Brown. Selina Gomez and Justin Bieber. Ok, maybe not the best examples but you get my drift.

Why is it that when it comes to men we tend to forget our self worth? Why is it that when someone tells us that we deserve better we never believe them (and they usually end up being right)? What is it about our biological make up that makes us fall so deeply for the ones that are soooooo bad for us? But I guess all these bad relationships are there to teach us a lesson. I read somewhere once that it takes bad relationships for us to have a good relationship. Somehow that makes sense.

Oh well. Nothing to be ashamed of. It happens to the best of us!

But the next time you find yourself getting caught up in the web of a guy who is soooo totally not worth it, just remember this....

Loom by Wedding Dress

I love music and I love discovering new songs. Was watching an episode of Criminal Minds and I came across this song....tried to Shazam and SoundHound it but to no avail! But thanks to my best friend, Google, here it is.....

Loom by Wedding Dress

Hope you enjoy it as much as I do. Love the mellow and slightly haunting tune.

I hate goodbyes

Today, one my my closest and dearest friend moved to Germany. I have not known her for as long as I have known some of my other BFFs but she has definitely become one my besties over the years. She has constantly been there for me in the past couple of years when my life kinda mimicked a roller coaster ride. She always had faith in me even when I had none in myself. And she is always always rooting for my happiness. Most importantly she never judges my actions - even when I do the stupidest things. She really made it easier for me to pick up the pieces whenever my relationships fall apart.

I cried buckets when I was sending her off. She cried. I cried. Sigh. What a mess. I cried while driving home. I cried after I got home. I really am gonna miss having her around. All the crazy things that we got up to. Our drunken boozy nights out. Our long drawn out lunch and gossip sessions (yes we are guilty of gossiping at times).

Why is it that as we get older, goodbyes become harder to say? I remember when I was much younger, goodbyes were so much easier for me to say. Even when I was leaving to further my studies in the UK, I never felt sad to leave behind my family and friends and conversely when I was leaving UK to come back home I never felt sad to to leave behind all my new found friends. Goodbyes never used to fazed me.

But as I grew older, goodbyes became harder to say. I started to know what it is like to miss your family. Your friends. Your significant other. Goodbyes now meant a red nose and puffy eyes. I guess I grew more human as a I grew older? Maybe my feelings matured over the years.

Yesterday, I sent someone else off at the airport as well. I wished him goodbye and he replied "No, not goodbye. See you later."