Musings on a lazy Sunday afternoon

I caught San Andreas in the theatres over the weekend. Can't resist a movie with The Rock in it. Have loved him ever since his WWE days (yes I watch wrestling). I have to say he has transitioned really well onto the big screen.

Anyways, the movie is set mainly in San Franciso, so obviously certain memories associated with my ex came rushing back into my mind. And you know what? It's ok. Those memories no longer give me a stabbing pain in my heart. It's something that I can push away relatively easily now as compared to before. Question is, why do these memories still come back or why do I still associate certain things with him so easily? Honestly, I don't have the answer to that but I have learned to just accept that it is what it is. There is no fighting or denying the fact that I was crazy about him. Initially I wanted to deny that I fell for someone so quickly. I guess that was my ego talking. But facts are facts and no matter how much you protest, the truth will always remain the truth.

I am now more able to look back at the whole incident and approach it in a more objective manner. But no matter how objective I try to be, one fact still remains. The type of guy that I am looking for, the type of guy that makes my heart skips a beat will have to have a lot of similar qualities to my ex. Not his douchebag qualities of course, but those parts of him that could make me laugh or knew me so well. Those parts of him which clicked so well with me. You can call me a sucker but like I said it is what it is.

I won't lie. I still do harbour hopes that we can be friends again one day. He will be back in January and if he still does not want to have anything to do with me then, it will make for an ackward situation as I am still hanging out with some of his closest friends. We shall see.